Over the next few years I came to love the comfort and ease of using tampons, but the discomfort and sometimes pain was always there. I found it odd and not knowing I had endometriosis yet, brushed it off as “eh.” I eventually got to a point where I just couldn’t use them anymore. It was too uncomfortable. But luckily I had done my research and found out that you could actually NOT have periods. Not have a period??!! What??? Yes please!!!!
I was in California the first time I tried the depot shot. I was so relieved. A shot every 3 months and no periods. Little did I know just how long I was going to be on it. Nor did I know that this was going to be the beginning of “progesterone only hormone therapy.” I still didn’t know I had endometriosis but I was definitely aware of how the BC pills with estrogen affected me. Terribly! I would find out 8 years later just what the effect of progesterone only can have on the body. (A very uncomfortable surgery, but more of that later)
I had found something that worked for my body. No periods meant no pain. No estrogen meant no pain. It was very enlightening. Whether it was a shot or a pill, over the next 8 years I was only on progesterone birth control. I did stop taking it briefly in 2013, after having to have surgery – more on this later – but I always went back.
To this day I can only manage my symptoms without estrogen. It is perplexing, disturbing, and confusing as to why. I am a woman after all. I have lady parts. Estrogen should be part of my biological makeup. Yet my body rejects it with a vengeance. When I think about conceiving I wonder how horrible that will feel especially if I had to go the IVF route. 99% of the time I am very adamant that I will not undergo IVF, if it is even an option. Why would I want to put myself through more torture and agony than I’ve already gone through? If it’s meant to be then it will happen naturally. I welcome times like this where I am so busy I can’t even think about these things. It’s nerve wracking. Sometimes it is better not to think. My cup runneth over.
Back to the 21st century. It is unfortunate that when individuals in government feel like they can control the fate of their civilians. Birth control is no longer “birth control” for those like me; it is a matter of our livelihood. We cannot survive without it. It is a crutch that we have to live with. To take that away from us takes away one of the few resources we have. A resource that provides us a somewhat manageable quality of life. It is not a cure. We know that there is no cure. But whatever we can do in the interim, we need it dammit and it’s no joke. It is not to be ignored or put at the bottom of a politically-biased-incompetent-twitterfrenzied-agenda.
To be fair there are many issues if concern when governing a nation. I believe we have become so desensitized to the point where it’s easier to get rid of an issue rather than attempt to rectify it. Give employers the choice in whether or not they will cover birth control under their insurance plan. Alright, employers have a right to choose what they want to spend their money on. That’s understandable. I am in no way an expert on the health care system in the US but I am aware that there is something terribly wrong. Reduce the amount of birth control for endo patients and you have just increased the amount of women who will make trips to emergency rooms which increases tax payers dollars. Does not seem like a fair trade to me…